Monday, March 28, 2011


Teething isn't fun for anyone.  Not for Bean or Momma or Daddy.  He's been drooling for what seems like months but still no teeth!  And I swear I've seen a little white something on his gums for what seems like weeks but still no teeth!  In the name of all that is holy please bring my little man's suffering to an end, and really mine and hubz' too, and cut this damn tooth already!  The up and down of the fever and the bi-polar disposition is enough to drive a Momma crazy.  It's a little exhausting when one minute he's all smiley and happy and in the blink of the eye his screaming, yes SCREAMING, like someone is killing him.  Not to mention the only way to even get him to take a breath from the screaming is by nursing, so I feel like a human pacifier but if it makes him feel better I'll do it.

I wonder if there's some kind of baby teeth dance I can do?

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

First Road Trip

So our first road trip with the Bean has been planned and the details are being worked out and this Momma is trying to get her Type Aness (<~yup totally a word) in check.  I have lists for my lists, ALREADY, and we're not even leaving until next month.  I love a good road trip but quite honestly I'd rather fly most place so I can just be there.  But with money being tight and the cost of an airplane trip for four way surpassing the cost for us to drive, well you get the picture.

Where are we going?  To New England.  The hubz' family lives up there and there's an Uncle and a Grumpy (Hubz' ex-step-dad who is still considered family) in Vermont that have yet to meet little man, so a traveling we will go.  There's also apparently a serious girlfriend that said Uncle has and hubz has yet to meet and since this is his little brother a stamp of approval must be bestowed.  We'll also be stopping in Massachusettes on the way back down to VA to visit with hubz' mom and her siblings, who have also not met the Bean.  All this will be happening in the span of about 3 days.  To say it'll be a busy weekend is an understatment.  The whole reason we're evening going up is because the step-son will be on spring break and as is just about tradition he'll be spending the week with his Noni (hubz' mom).

My hope is that Bean sleeps most of the trip, since we're leaving late Thursday nite, but we'll see.  I'm excited and nervous and I'm sure between now and then I'll have plenty to say about the whole trip.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Spring Cleaning

Every year I say I'm going to tackle spring cleaning.  Give my house the scrub down it deserves and kick start Spring and the beautiful weather it's sure to bring with a fantastically (<~ that's a word right?) clean house.  Every year it's a complete failure...the best laid plans right?  However, this year I was serious.  With so many things in my life feeling like they're spiraling out of control I had to do something to take back some control and the first place I can do that is in my own house, I'm still trying to figure out how to do it with my life.  So Saturday I cleaned Bean's room, switiched out small clothes for bigger ones, got rid of stuffed animals and clothes and just need to vaccum and steam clean his carpet.  Yesterday hubz and I tackled our room, or at least half, by vacuming and steam cleaning the carpet .  We have a GIANT king size bed with a GIANT dresser to  match so we only got half the room done but we'll finish tonite and next weekend we'll move on to the office, which is in desperate need of a purge.  My goal is to have the inside of the house done by mid-April, since I'm only working on stuff on weekends, and then to move to the outside in May, once it's nice on a consistent basis.

With getting the house in order I've been trying to come up with ways to get my life in order, since I feel like it's spinning out of control.  Last Wednesday was Ash Wednesday and the start of Lent a time that's suppose to allow for the preparation of the coming of Christ and time to reflect and repent.  It's normally a day I take to go to Church and reflect and prepare for the Lenten season but this year I couldn't go because times just didn't work out and with virtually being a single parent during the week it's hard to get the things important to me done because of taking care of the boys.  So now I feel out of sorts.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Thankful on Thursday

I'm thankful for a lot of things this week and today but right now the only thing I can think about is coffee.  Sweet Java...Joe...Cafe.  My little man has not been sleeping well lately, I think it's his teeth but what the heck do I know.  What I do know is I'm so sleepy and would just like a solid 5 or 6 hours of sleep, see not even 8.  But until that can happen I'll just have a coffee drip permanently inserted into my arm.

Happy Thursday!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

                        My reason for getting up and moving this morning.

Monday, March 7, 2011

The Hubz

So Hubz says that he was catching up on the blog and that I never said anything good about him.  I told him he was wrong but hey maybe he's right.  So I dedicate this entry to the love of my life. 

See him up there with our little Bean?  He's a good looking fella!  And is paving his way to heaven by being married to me.  I like to say I'm spicy, but the truth is I can be difficult and stubborn when I want to, and this man just takes it all in stride.  He hardly ever loses his patience with me, unless I push him to far, and he puts up with all of my bitchiness.  He really was made for me because he balances my Type A personality with his Type B.  He reminds me to stop and enjoy life and is there when I need a laugh.  And while he may not do anything I ask him, when I ask him, he eventually gets to ... eventually.  And sure I'm gonna be stuck being the mean parent while he's the fun one I'm glad my kids will have that balance, although it'd be nice to get to be the fun parent everyone once in a while.

So while I may tend to focus on what he doesn't do and less on what he does I do appreciate this man that God has blessed me with.  We've had our rough patches, but what relationship hasn't, and I'm sure we'll have many more to come.  However, I couldn't nor would I have picked someone better to take this journey of life with.  He's my anchor.  I love ya babe, forever and always!

Happy Half - Birthday Trippy!

Trippy Dippy
You're 6 months old today and I can't help but tear up a little.  Yup Momma's a crier, get use to it sweet boy because it will only get worse as you get older. 6 months ago God blessed us with you and I've never been more thankful for a gift than I am for you.  You're growing by leaps and bounds and the little hiccup we had in the beginning is but a memory.  We had a follow-up neuro appointment the end of February and assuming all tests go well you'll be off all your meds before you're 7-months!  You're sitting unassisted for longer periods now and rolling over like a pro!  You're a full on eating machine and after having a cold for several weeks I think you're finally on the mend. You and I have started daily walks and you love them, at least I think you do since you're not screaming and fall asleep every time -- that ability to fall asleep any time you're in a "moving" vehicle you get from Momma and if you're anything like me you won't ever grow out of it.  We have your 6-month appointment this Friday and I can't wait to see if you've finally hit that 15 lbs mark.  You've started eating solids and I'm looking forward to seeing what you like and don't like. 

It's hard for Momma to believe that we've hit such a big milestone already and with only a few bumps and bruises along the way.  Don't worry though I know the best is yet to come and I can't wait!

Happy Half-Birthday Little Man! Momma loves you!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Thankful on Thursday

Trip hasn't been sleeping lately.  It's like he's on strike.  I'm tired!  But I'm still thankful for him!  What I'm most thankful for this week though is the great news we got at Trip Neuro appointment on Monday.  We're going to be redoing his EEG on St. Patty's day and if it's clean my baby will be med free by the end of March!  I couldn't be happier and more relieved and I'll be even more so once the EEG is done and we have the results that all is well.  At that point I think I'll be ready to post about the whole ordeal that took place when my little guy was just 3 days old.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

I cry

I was always an easier crier, especially after my parents split up, but since Trip has been born it's even more so.  I was blaming it on the hormones for the longest time, but now that he's almost 6 months I can't imagine I still have tons of hormones streaming through me making me act crazy so the explanation must just be that it comes with being a mom. I cry when I think about what we went through the first two weeks of his life and how we weren't sure we'd get to this point or what this point would look like.  I cry when I think about how on Monday he'll be 6 months and how it's gone so fast and before I know it we'll be celebrating his 1st Birthday. Hubz frequently laughs at me becuase I cry when I think about how fast the last 6 months have gone by and I feel like before I know it Trip will be starting school, then dating, off to college, married and with kids of his own.  And then I step back take a breath and bring myself back to the present because while I know those things are all going to happen the sane part of me knows they're YEARS away and right now I have this tiny little person that relys on me for everything and thinks that I'm the most important person in his life.  So I'll take these days for what they are a gift.  A gift to enjoy and cherish and love and be thankful for.  I may not always get all the housework done or dinner cooked and on the table when I want but I try and I know in the end all that will matter is that I did the best I could, with a lot of tears along the way.

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