Momma Friends

Most of my friends are family, I like it that way because for the most part you trust family to always be there.  I have a handful of friends that I'm not related to by marriage or blood and I've known them for years so to me they're like family because I'd trust them with my life, I'd trust them with my children and that's saying a lot.  However, sometimes I wish I had some Momma friends.  Some ladies that know what it's like to work and juggle this Momma job with a husband that works crazy hours, with no sign of that ever changing.  Maybe it wouldn't feel so lonely all the time.

31

Yesterday was my birthday and really 31 doesn't feel that much different that 30, well ya know except the fact that this year I'm growing this little Dumpling and last year I celebrated by drinking tons of champagne and other grown-up libations. 

 

Birthdays are definitely different when you're an adult and a Momma to boot.  Other than birthday wishes on Facebook and through text and a card from my mom and bestie there was really any celebrating.  No presents, well except the gift I gave myself of trying to cut my finger off...it's a long story,  or cake.  And while I might be a little bummed about it my birthday is on Halloween which really is more about the kids than me so, what can you do.  My boy was the cutest little Bob-omb:
 

And these memories are ones that I'll gladly take even if it means that my birthday kind of gets pushed to the back burner.

So now we're in November and the count down is on for the arrival of Dumpling and the holidays.  Every year I say it but, where did the year go?  We've got things to get done and maybe they'll get done and maybe they won't be all I know is that in about 45 days or so I'll be bringing home a new babe to start new memories and who this time next year will be one more reason why my birthday is pushed to the back burner.

Dumpling Weeks 32/33

How far along? 33 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Gained a pound last week! Still at a loss though with 9 according to the dr and 14 if you count the five I lost before I started appointments

Maternity clothes? ummm...heck yes and I have been since about 9 weeks, but I'm still also wearing a lot of non-maternity too, mostly in tops.  Of course I'm not sure what I"m going to do now that it's starting to get cold. 

Stretch marks? no new ones.

Sleep: I'm sleeping just not great, partially because I have to get up to pee multiple times a nite and partially because I'm almost 33 weeks pregnant

Best moment this week: Moving the Bean into his big boy room!  He did great.  We've had a rough week this week but I'm not sure if it's the new surroundings or teething/growth spurt. Either way it's exhausting and I'll be happy for it to be over.

Food cravings: This week it was the turkey cranberry panini from Panera, I had it for dinner last nite.  DELISH!  Overall though nothing that I just have to have every day.

Gender: no idea and we won't know until December when Dumpling makes his or her appearance. 

Labor Signs: The Braxton Hicks are a little intense sometimes but other than that nothing and I'd like it to stay that way at least through for at least 4-5 more weeks.  We still have to get the bassinet and car seat out and cleaned and then Dumpling's welcome to come.

 

Belly Button in or out? I just call it my gully now. Although I don't even think that's the best way to describe it either since it's really just completely flat and Bean still insists on trying to shove his finger in it...OUCH!

What I miss: Wine or really any adult libations. I just need a good stiff drink.  <~still this...

What I am looking forward to: Getting the nursery set up, now that we've gotten the Bean moved into his big boy room it's time to get things set up for Dumpling and the Sprinkle that my sisters-in-law planned for me in a few weeks.  It's really just a reason for us to get together.

Weekly Wisdom: Things will fall into place when they need to and just like last time there's really nothing I can do about it.

Milestones: I got to sleep past 7am today...it's the little things.

Dumpling - 30/31 Weeks

How far along? 31 weeks, 1 day

Total weight gain/loss: Gained a pound last week!  Still at a loss though with 10 according to the dr and 15 if you count the five I lost before I started appointments

Maternity clothes? ummm...heck yes and I have been since about 9 weeks, but I'm still also wearing a lot of non-maternity too, mostly in tops.

Stretch marks? no new ones.

Sleep: I'm sleeping just not great, partially because I have to get up to pee at least once a nite and partially because I'm almost 32 weeks pregnant

Best moment this week: It was actually last weekend when Hubz and I went away to celebrate our 5 year wedding anniversary in Atlantic City.  We slept and relaxed and just hung out and enjoyed each other's company.  We haven't had even a weekend away just the two of us since our Honeymoon.

Food cravings: nothing really, food still isn't my FAVORITE thing ever but at least I can eat now.  Although Melting Pot last weekend for our Anniversary was quite delicious.!

Gender: no idea and we won't know until December when Dumpling makes his/her appearance

Labor Signs: The Braxton Hicks are a little intense sometimes but other than that nothing and I'd like it to stay that way at least through Thanksgiving.

Belly Button in or out? I just call it my gully now.  Although I don't even think that's the best way to describe it either since it's really just completely flat.

What I miss: Wine or really any adult libations.  I just need a good stiff drink.

What I am looking forward to: Getting the nursery set up, now that we've gotten the Bean moved into his big boy room it's time to get things set up for Dumpling.

Weekly Wisdom: Am at that point where I have to start reminding myself that everything that needs to get done will get done and before Dumpling gets here.

Milestones: Not really baby related but the Bean is in a toddler bed as of this weekend and doing great!

5 Years

5 years ago today the Hubz and I stood before family, friends and God and promised to love each other in good times and bad, until death do us part.  There were other things said, most I don't remember but these words they stick with me always.  It definitely hasn't been an easy 5 years between home buying, job loss, the Bean's birth and subsequent hospital stay and follow-ups and oh so many other things that are just part of life.  However, through it all we've always had each other.

When both of my sisters and my sister-in-law got married I told them that marriage wasn't easy, true story, and that it was something you had to work at everyday.  And work we do, some days are easier than others but always at the end of the day I wouldn't chose anyone else to share this adventure with.

Looking at pictures from that day I smile, laugh and cry (EVERY TIME)  at the memories and the love that surrounded.  We have a big ROWDY group of family and friends and they were all there to celebrate with us and we wouldn't have had it any other way.

So on this our 5 year wedding anniversary I hope the Hubz knows that I love him more today then I did that day five years ago and I'll love him more tomorrow then I did today.  And while some days I want to shake him, and I'm sure the feeling is mutual on his end about me, I'll always thank God that he brought him into my life just when I least expected it.  He teaches me to go with the flow and enjoy life and I teach him to be a grown-up :).  We may not have it all together (we really don't) but together we have it all.

I will

Mr & Mrs

 

First dance

Good Times

 Our Happily Ever after

 Happy Anniversary Hubz! I love you forever and always!

Dumpling - 29 Weeks (2 days)

Somewhere, along the way of this pregnancy, I lost control of my life. It's slowly starting to drive me insane, like REALLY crazy, so I'm working on gaining back some of that.  However, I think the out of control is still winning.  What's even worse is I know that it's not going to get any better, what with adding a new baby and all.

 

Le sigh.

 

So that's why it's taken me 5 weeks to write an update on Dumpling.  Although I was only doing every 4 weeks anyway since that's when my appointments were but now where at 2 week appointments.  SAY WHAT!?  Yup I'll be visiting with fantastic OB every two weeks now, starting next Monday when I'll be 30 weeks, 2 days.  I'm not sure how this happened, this being almost 10 weeks from my due date with barely anything accomplished but alas it did and now I feel like I'm in hyper drive to get things done while still working and maintaining a home (although not very well) and maintaining my sanity (again not very well). 

 

Oh well, ready or not Dumplings coming so I better get it together and soon because I think chances are good that this babe will be making an early appearance like big brother did 2 years ago.  Oh yeah that's right I have a two year and pictures to share from his birthday, ya know when I have time.

 

How far along? 29 weeks, 2 days

 

Total weight gain/loss: After my appointment a week and half ago I'm down two more pounds which brings  me down  11 pounds to the doctor but if I include the 5 pounds I'd lost before I started my appointments at 9 weeks it's really 16pounds. I now weigh less than I did when I got pregnant with the Bean.

 

Maternity clothes? ummm...heck yes and I have been since about 9 weeks, but I'm still also wearing a lot of non-maternity too. I'm only comfortable with the pants that have the secret belly so my clothing choices have started to dwindle so I've started looking at eBay and discovered that Motherhood Maternity sells leggings and petite pants so I've added a couple pairs of each to my wardrobe to get me through the next few months.

Stretch marks? no new ones.

Sleep: Some nites are better than others. I'm up at least once a nite to go to the bathroom and can only really sleep on my left side or sitting up so lots of rearranging but every once in a while I find the perfect position and can sleep through most of the nite.

Best moment this week: I haven't throw n up in a couple of weeks, and since some days I'm still uber nauseous I'll take it.

 

Food cravings: nothing really, I'm just happy to be able to eat most things.  Still can't do anything super sweet or soda or coffee or tea but I can eat most meat now without wanting to hurl so that's something

 

Gender: no idea and we won't know until December when Dumpling makes his/her appearance

Labor Signs: I started with Braxton Hicks  and some of them are a little intense but nothing sitting with my feet up and drinking some water can't take care of.  I didn't think I started with BH this early last time but Hubz says it was about the same time.  Other than that no real labor signs and it better stay like the for a least 8 more weeks.

Belly Button in or out? my poor belly button.  it looks like a little ledge it's so flat

 

What I miss: A good glass of red wine and some pasta with red sauce oh and sushi I REALLY miss sushi and wine.

What I am looking forward to: since our 5 year wedding anniversary is this weekend I'm looking forward to time for just me and the hubz, but when we get back it's nothing but baby prep. 

Weekly Wisdom: It's true that the second pregnancy seems to move faster, probably because you're chasing after a toddler and can't sit around thinking as much about the impending arrival.

Milestones: The Bean understanding Momma has a baby in her belly.  Now if he'd stop using me as a jungle gym.

2 Years - 24 Months - 731 Days



2 weeks before your 2nd birthday. What a difference 2 years makes!



My Sweet Boy
I'm not sure how we got to this point so quickly.  It seems like we were just finding out about your existence and then before we knew it you were here.  Making you appearance into our life and making sure we knew that your were here to keep us on our toes.  I know time at all you were crawling and smiling and eating food and then before we knew you were 1 and walking.  Once you started walking it was all over and you were in to everything.  Then you were talking and and putting sounds and words together so that you could actually communicate with us.

Now today on this your 2nd Birthday I'm still not sure how we got here so quickly.  24 months, 731 days it just doesn't seem possible.  I know I've said this every month since you were born but really it just doesn't seem possible.  I see you changing and becoming a little boy and I wonder what from this time in your life will you carry with you into boyhood and beyond.  Will you remember how you always had some kind of ball in your hand including when you went to bed?  Or how about how just about everything and anything was a guitar or a drum.  You love to dance and music is the first thing you normally ask for when we walk through the door in the afternoon, you get that from Daddy and I and we get it from our parents music is part of us.  Unless your sick your an eater and you LOVE your fruits and veggies, which makes Momma very happy.

This next year will bring big changes for you. Moving to a toddler bed, potty training and getting a new brother/sister.  You'll continue to grow and change and I'll continue to be amazed at the little man you're becoming.  Each year as you get older you'll learn that Momma is a big sap when it comes to you and your brothers/sisters because you are each the most precious gift God could have ever given me.  To be made your Momma has probably been the single biggest accomplishment in my life, and I've done a lot of great things, and I will forever be grateful for the chance to shape you, love you and watch you grow into a man.

Welcome to the world!

Momma meeting her boy for the first time.

Daddy and his boy in recovery, waiting on Momma.

 

Happy 2nd Birthday my Sweet Boy!