The Hubz

So Hubz says that he was catching up on the blog and that I never said anything good about him.  I told him he was wrong but hey maybe he's right.  So I dedicate this entry to the love of my life. 

See him up there with our little Bean?  He's a good looking fella!  And is paving his way to heaven by being married to me.  I like to say I'm spicy, but the truth is I can be difficult and stubborn when I want to, and this man just takes it all in stride.  He hardly ever loses his patience with me, unless I push him to far, and he puts up with all of my bitchiness.  He really was made for me because he balances my Type A personality with his Type B.  He reminds me to stop and enjoy life and is there when I need a laugh.  And while he may not do anything I ask him, when I ask him, he eventually gets to ... eventually.  And sure I'm gonna be stuck being the mean parent while he's the fun one I'm glad my kids will have that balance, although it'd be nice to get to be the fun parent everyone once in a while.

So while I may tend to focus on what he doesn't do and less on what he does I do appreciate this man that God has blessed me with.  We've had our rough patches, but what relationship hasn't, and I'm sure we'll have many more to come.  However, I couldn't nor would I have picked someone better to take this journey of life with.  He's my anchor.  I love ya babe, forever and always!

Happy Half - Birthday Trippy!

Trippy Dippy
You're 6 months old today and I can't help but tear up a little.  Yup Momma's a crier, get use to it sweet boy because it will only get worse as you get older. 6 months ago God blessed us with you and I've never been more thankful for a gift than I am for you.  You're growing by leaps and bounds and the little hiccup we had in the beginning is but a memory.  We had a follow-up neuro appointment the end of February and assuming all tests go well you'll be off all your meds before you're 7-months!  You're sitting unassisted for longer periods now and rolling over like a pro!  You're a full on eating machine and after having a cold for several weeks I think you're finally on the mend. You and I have started daily walks and you love them, at least I think you do since you're not screaming and fall asleep every time -- that ability to fall asleep any time you're in a "moving" vehicle you get from Momma and if you're anything like me you won't ever grow out of it.  We have your 6-month appointment this Friday and I can't wait to see if you've finally hit that 15 lbs mark.  You've started eating solids and I'm looking forward to seeing what you like and don't like. 

It's hard for Momma to believe that we've hit such a big milestone already and with only a few bumps and bruises along the way.  Don't worry though I know the best is yet to come and I can't wait!

Happy Half-Birthday Little Man! Momma loves you!

Thankful on Thursday

Trip hasn't been sleeping lately.  It's like he's on strike.  I'm tired!  But I'm still thankful for him!  What I'm most thankful for this week though is the great news we got at Trip Neuro appointment on Monday.  We're going to be redoing his EEG on St. Patty's day and if it's clean my baby will be med free by the end of March!  I couldn't be happier and more relieved and I'll be even more so once the EEG is done and we have the results that all is well.  At that point I think I'll be ready to post about the whole ordeal that took place when my little guy was just 3 days old.

I cry

I was always an easier crier, especially after my parents split up, but since Trip has been born it's even more so.  I was blaming it on the hormones for the longest time, but now that he's almost 6 months I can't imagine I still have tons of hormones streaming through me making me act crazy so the explanation must just be that it comes with being a mom. I cry when I think about what we went through the first two weeks of his life and how we weren't sure we'd get to this point or what this point would look like.  I cry when I think about how on Monday he'll be 6 months and how it's gone so fast and before I know it we'll be celebrating his 1st Birthday. Hubz frequently laughs at me becuase I cry when I think about how fast the last 6 months have gone by and I feel like before I know it Trip will be starting school, then dating, off to college, married and with kids of his own.  And then I step back take a breath and bring myself back to the present because while I know those things are all going to happen the sane part of me knows they're YEARS away and right now I have this tiny little person that relys on me for everything and thinks that I'm the most important person in his life.  So I'll take these days for what they are a gift.  A gift to enjoy and cherish and love and be thankful for.  I may not always get all the housework done or dinner cooked and on the table when I want but I try and I know in the end all that will matter is that I did the best I could, with a lot of tears along the way.

Well Whatta ya know

That damn Cupid came through after all!  Hubz made homemade chicken parm, it was delicious!  And I slaved over a cookies & cream pudding pie.  Hubz suprised me with flowers and a sweater and I got him a print of one of his favorite pictures from the budoir photos I got him for Christmas as well as a photo book of the pictures.  All in all not a bad day.  I know it wasn't what some would call romantic or fun but it's a rare occasion anymore when hubz is actually home to sit down with us to eat dinner, so I'll take it. 

Damn Cupid

I don't buy into the whole Valentine's Day.  What I do buy into is any day that let's me celebrate the ones I love the most, not that I need a special day to do that.  So on this Bean's first Valentine's Day I can't wait to give him some extra smooches and hugs, because these days that's about Momma can afford.  The money, or lack there of, situation is for a later post. 

I had thought that hubby and I could do dinner and desert together tonite, but I don't see that happening.  Since when I told him to pick dinner or desert, without telling him why, and he picked dinner and then found out why he was choosing he said guess we're going out.  Right cause that's going to happen.  It's Monday, a school day and work day and not to mention VALENTINE's DAY!

So screw you cupid I hardly get any acknowledgement on any other day and I don't expect today to be any different.

5 Months

Dear Sweet Trip
Today you're five months and once again I wonder at where the time has gone!  You're so vocal these days laughing, cooing and grunting all the time.  You started rice cereal this last month and just last week you started oatmeal.  You defiantely perfer the oatmeal to the rice cereal.  Today on your five month birthday you'll start getting cereal twice a day, once in the morning with Ms. Diane, and then at nite like we've been doing for two weeks now. Before I know you'll be eating steak and potatos just like Daddy.  You found your feet this last month as well as your tongue, although to say you found them sounds funny because it's not like they were ever lost, but you are definately aware of them now.  Sophie the Giraffe is your favorite toy, you chew on her feet constantly!  Daddy and I are sure you're going to cut a tooth any day now.  Your sleep has been quite erratic lately but I can only assume it's because of the teething.  You got to experience your first snow and like Momma you weren't really a fan, Daddy's hoping you grow out of it but I'm hoping you don't so I have a buddy to snuggle with!

At the end of January you had your last appointment with the Geneticist at Children's!  They did a skin biopsy and it was by far the worse thing we've experienced yet.  But as is our trend you and I both survived and got through it.  Nana went with us so that Momma didn't have to go through it alone, that Nana's a special lady.  Now it's on to the Neurologist this month for a check-up.

This next month will bring your first big event!  At the end of the month you'll be Baptized.  This day is very important because it's where Momma, Daddy and your Godparents will promise to guide you towards Christ to the best our ability and I take that responsibility seriously.  Speaking of Godparents you'll get to see Aunt Mandy, Momma's bestest friend ever, for the first time since you were itty bitty and sick and meet Uncle Rob as well as there kids, Jojo and Kaleb.  Momma and Daddy are Kaleb's Godparents, which makes him super special to us, but Jojo is just as special.  They're the family we got to pick and I forsee you and Kaleb getting into lots of trouble together as you get older.  I'm hoping some other family can make the trip for this special occasion but only time will tell.

My dear sweet Bean my love for you grows every day and I can't imagine what we'll experience in this your 5th month of life.

I love you forever and always!
Momma