6 months later ....

WTH!  I can't believe it's been almost 6 months since I lasted posted but then again I can because growing a tiny human while raising two other tiny humans is HARD WORK!  Oh right....it's been 6 months so this is the first time that I'm mentioning that we're expecting Swiftly Growing Baby #3.  Is this our last you ask? Ummmmm....it's still up for debate.  Hubz says yes, I say not sure.  Once again I was hella sick at the beginning, until about 18 weeks.  It was miserable, as usual, but now I'm doing better and hitting 23 weeks tomorrow.

So other than growing another wee one what's been going on around the Swiftly Growing household? Well, Hubz is just about done with school, FINALLY!  He'll graduate in June.  The step-son is almost through his second year of high school and it's hard to believe that this summer we'll start talking about colleges.  The burrito and my little divalicious are growing steadily.  The Burrito starts school in August, ALREADY! I'm in complete denial about it but he's ready and excited. 

I'm just trudging along trying to keep everyone alive and thriving.  I guess I'm succeeding since everyone seems in pretty good spirits, most days.  I have missed this little space so I'm planning to do better at keeping it updated. Until next time....

Treading Water

I've been back to work for 3 weeks, really almost 4 at this point, and I feel like I'm barely treading water.  This mothering of two wee ones and a teenager ain't no joke.  And if we're really being honest, which I am, I feel like I'm barely making it work.  I'm up between 345 and 430, Monday thru Friday and lucky to be in bed by 930, assuming little miss is cooperating.  From the time I wake up until the time I lay down it's pretty much go, go, go and someone's always needing something..ALWAYS! I barely have time to use the bathroom let alone take a breath.

Oh so now let's add into this madness the fact that I may or may not be losing 4 days a month from my paycheck, thanks for that Congress, and the stress factor up in here is just about to boil over.  Which is why when I woke up with a migraine on Tuesday I wasn't all that suprised, I actually had been expecting it.  So now I do what I do best, adjust and get on with it.  I'm not sure what I thought mothering two wee ones was going to be like, easy not so much but maybe not quite so overwhelming but hey with barely a minute to breathe I don't have much time to wallow in it.

On the days when it becomes to much I'm going to remember something I just read from one of my favorite blogs, Enjoying the Small Things. The Momma, Kelle Hampton, was talking about her tranistion from two to three kids, she just had the cutest little boy to add to her beautiful family, and she said "Life does not lend itself to smooth transitions."  It's like God knew I need something to remind me that we do the best we can and that's what I'm doing, even if some days I don't feel like it. 

And just to keep it all in prespective these two just need me to love them.  Everything else will fall into place, won't it?

I love them.

Heavy Heart

My heart is heavy today with news from my Dad that my Grandma is in the hospital and it doesn't look good.  I thought we'd have a little more time, I had plans to go visit in the spring with the Bean and hopfully and new little bundle growing in my belly.  She hasn't even met her newest great grandchild.

Growing up an Army brat we didn't really spend a lot of time with our extended family, but we always knew they were there.  I don't have many memories of my Grandma, the one I remember the most is the time we lived with here while my dad got things set-up in Italy and there was a tornando.  It was scary and an adventure all at the same time, I imagine that's just a skill grandparents have.  Now as I sit here wondering if I'll be traveling south to Tennessee sometime this week I'm sad that my kids will never get to know her, or any of their great grandparents on my side personally but only through my memories.

I wish that I'd made the trip this summer like I'd originally planned and then life got in the way.  Life always gets in the way.  But I'm making a note to stop letting it be the reason for not getting important things, like time with family and friends,  done.  It's true ... tomorrow is not guranteed, we only have today.  If you can spare a prayer or two I'd greatly appreciate it.

Thankful on Thursday

Super busy at work today but just needed to take a moment to remember the things I'm thankful for:



Destiny (baby sister) & Lisa (sister from another mother)

While I am of course super thankful for my baby sister, and my other sister too, this weekend I am especially thankful and proud of my sister from another mother, Lisa.  She'll graduate from George Mason University this weekend and I couldn't be more proud of her.  I've watched this beautiful young woman grow from an awkward little girl with CRAZY red hair (I'll have to see if I can find a vintage Lisa picture) into an amazing, CRAZY self-assured young woman.  I'm thankful for her because of the unconditional love she has shown my baby sister in the many, many years they've been friends.  They can go without talking for months and still pick-up right where they left off, that is the sign of a true friendship.  Every girl should have a friendship like these two, I know I do, it helps keep us grounded.

So to Lisa Lou, I love ya girl and I'm so proud of your accomplishment and so very thankful that God gifted Destiny, and my family, with your presence in our lives.  Congrats GRAD, you did it!  Now enjoy a nice glass of bubbly for all your hard work!

A Belated Birthday Shout Out

The last week has been very rough.  The Bean regressed from sleeping 10-12 hours a nite with no wake-up to waking up every two to three hours.  I think it was our trip but for the love of God a Momma was tired.  Then I got pink eye but didn't know it was pink eye until almost a week later...and now here we are a week after the birthday of my two favorite girls and I have yet to mention it. So without futher ado...

circa 2005

That's me with my girls on their  21st birthday, which is not what we celebrated this year so you do the math.  We were much younger and carefree back then. 

These two were my best friends before I knew what best friends were.  Sure they shared a womb for 9 months, in case you couldn't tell they're twins, so they'll always have a special bond but we're all sisters which lends itself to its own kind of bond.  I would do anything for them. And while they may not have always made the best choices, at least not the choices I would have had them make, they've done quite well in making lives for themselves with men who love them and baby boys that adore them. 

I'm a big believer in birthday celebrations.  It's the one time during the year that is all about you!  So you can believe I'm sure to impart this wisdom on to my younger siblings.  And these girls always take it to heart.  We did birthday dinner at a Japanese steak house, which coincidentally is also how we celebrate the aforementioned 21st birthday, with the fam.  Then the next nite it was a grown folks party at a bar where a friend works.  All in all a great weekend that ended with Easter, post to come later on the Bean's first Easter.

So though it's a little late:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LADIES!!!  I luv ya'll!

Almost 4 months

Well, it's been a while since I last wrote. School had me quite busy the last week and half, it was really my own fault since I like to procrastinate, but I'm happy to say that I finished the quarter with a 4.0! I was worried as my Investment class was giving me a heck of a time but I some how managed to pull my mid-'B' up to a low 'A' and I'll take it!

In baby related news I'm almost 4months! How the heck did that happen!? I feel like time's just flying right by and I'm still not 100% enjoying in it because I'm STILL sick! Ugh! But I take the good days as they come and reap everything I can from them. I'm the first to admit that sometimes life isn't easy and this pregnancy is part of life so I'll push through, it's what I do, and I'll remember every second for what it has been a growning period for not only this wee babe I'm growing but myself as well. I'm aware of my own strength, though sometimes I forget, and believe that God doesn't give us what we can handle.

Speaking of God. This week is Holy Week and while my Lenten season hasn't been what it normally is, what with the extreme morning sickness, I still made sure that for the last 40 days I reflected on what God gave us, His son, to do for, Die for us. If that's not the true sacrafice of a parent I don't know what is. This year was especially symbolic for me as I prepare to become a parent myself. So as I celebrate this Easter holiday with the hubz and step-son, our last one as a threesome, I'll be reflecting on what is to come and the sacrafices I will surely make for my own children. Remembering all the while that all the struggles and triumphs are all part of God's plan.

HAPPY EASTER!

Thanksgiving and Christmas beginnings

Thanksgiving was low key this year. My sister and brother-in-law that got married in September hosted this year, it's kind of like a little tradition to host either Thanksgiving or Christmas the year you get married. There were only 7 of us: me, hubz, the step-son, SIL, BIL, nephew and MIL. It was nice though because Christams is going to CRAZY! I drank a little to much wine, like 1/2 a bottle two much, I should have stopped 1/2 way through the second bottle instead of finishing it. However, 2 bottles of wine and six hours of sleep later, for a 550 am wake-up, I was up and shopping. SIL and I have been doing black friday shopping for a couple of years now and I love it. I can normally get all 12 nieces and nephews done and the step-son and hubz about 1/2 way done..it's great! The rest of the weekend was nice with nothing to do but sleep in and lounge around which is exactly what we did.

Now it's on to Christmas and all the holiday has to bring. Like family, the birth of Christ and the joys of Christmas in general. With hubz out of work this Christams we're only gifting nieces, nephews and parents and then each other and the step-son. I'm sad about it b/c there's nothing I love more than giving presents but what can we do really? We're also hosting dinner at our house this year and rather then a buffet where we find a seat where ever we can we're having a sit down. The table have been gotten and now we have to figure out the chair situation and see how many of the family will be joining us. It should be fun, exhausting and fulfilling. Hubz and my family's are both very different but I love any opportunity we can have to get us all together in one place. Our families shape us and to have all 20+ of us together for a least on holiday a year makes me happy.

Words

I'm not one to hold my tongue when I have something to say, and while this sometimes drives hubz nuts he's kind of gotten use to it. I don't always yell out the first thing that pops into my head but that's only because I want to mold the words that I'm going to speak before I speak them. I want them to have meaning and truth and I want the listner to have no doubt about how I feel or where I stand. Words have the power to motivate and at the same time to discourage. Words have the power to uplift and at the same time push down. Words can't be unsaid, once spoken they can't be taken back or explained away.

In this electronic age I wonder if we've forgotten the power our words can have on those that hear them. Let us not forget Mr. Martin Luther King, Jr who with his words moved Blacks to stand up and be noticed and treated equally. More recently President Obama who with his words led a genereation, often thought to be empathetic and lazy, to show up at the polls and cast their votes for change.

In the past couple of days there has been some drama amongst members of my family. And while this is normal, where a spicy bunch, this time it's kind of pushed me to my limit. If anyone were to ask me the most important thing in my life I'd respond without a doubt with Family. They are the people who have most shaped who I am. They are the core of who I am and my reason for being, along with hubz. So when they yell at each other and call each other names it hurts me to my soul. We're the only family we've got and no matter what we've always stuck by each other. Sure I don't always agree how they live their lives or with the decisons they may make, but just like I support our soliders in a war I don't agree with, I support my family in everything they do. But lately the WORDS that they speak to each other are laced with meaness, hatred and spite! While normally I try not to get involved in thier lives, even with my need to speak my WORDS, this time I had to. So I said my piece...then I found out what the heart of the matter is and I was PISSED!!!!! Pushed to my limit doesn't begin to explain it because what it came down to was a lack of respect and that I will NOT TOLERATE from anyone, family, friend or foe!

So today I'm stepping back from the situation. I'm looking at it from all angles and then I'm going to do what I do best. Figure out how to solve the problem. I will not let outsiders, and that's what you are if you don't share my blood or have my heart, break this bond. Some would say I'm the least spicy of this wild bunch I call a family but the truth is I'm the one most likely to attack when you least expect it (I'm convinced it's the scorpio in me). After this we'll all step back and pick up the peices and clean up the mess stronger for what we've been through. Because Lord knows that if we haven't broken thus far we probably never will. It's true what they say: "What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger."

Wedding #1

My sister in law and bestest friend got married on Saturday to the greastest guy. He truely is her perfect match. The day was gorgeous, which was good since the ceremony was outside, and my sister looked beautiful and happy. Of course with any wedding there are hitches and glitches but nothing that she had to worry about because she was the bride. I kept telling her she could borrow my spotlight for the day, since she's not one to be the center of attention like me, of course I just had to steal the spotlight back when I fell of the curb and severly sprained my ankle. I swear...I fall of curbs at least once a week and nothing but the nite of her wedding I sprain my ankle at least it was at the end when everything was all done. It may still be broken I'll fine out when I go see my own doctor this week...fingers crossed it really is just a sprain. Regradless I'm on crutches for at least 2 weeks maybe 3.

Good Books

Sometimes when I'm in a really bad place I tend to sit and look back at all the things I haven't done in my life. Yup, that's right I throw myself a pity party for 1 b/c really I don't need anyone to revel in my failures. However, I just finished a book, Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah, that reminded me to take stock in all the things I have done. I have a college degree, a husband that I adore and a step-son I'm proud of. My family, for all their drama, is my light at the end of a dark tunnel and my friends, the family I got to pick, keep me grounded and remind me of who I am. I may not be a size 3 or a big corporate lawyer, but I have job that pays my bills and a roof over my head. Sure I can be a negative Nancy but all in all my life's not half bad.

Something else that Firefly Lane made me think of is how much a girl needs a best friend. However, a true best friend doesn't have to be consant in your everyday life to be constant in your everyday heart. We're about 2-months out from my best friend moving across the country and it's this that has kind of help me come to terms with her leaving. She'll only be gone about 2-years and it's only about $230 to fly out there. So I'll settle on this and hold on to it. The next 8-weeks will go quicker that I could ever imagine but we'll make them count.

Oh the Pain

I started working out on Monday, Tae-Bo, it wasn't too bad and I was only a little sore yesterday. They yesterday I was back at the 30 Day Shred, damn I'm out of shape, and today my body is sore, sore, sore! It's okay though I know I have to push through the pain and it'll get better, at least that's what I'm hoping. I haven't been impressed by the Jillian Micheals website I registerd for and now I'm sad that I wasted the money. I think I might just cancel and only be out the $20.

In other news I got my math mid-term back last nite, got a B. I'm a little upset with my self b/c it could have been a hight B, but I'm just going to keep that in mind for the final since there's nothing I can do about the mid-term.

It's my last day of work for 5 days!!!! We're headed to the beach with hubz' family. I can't wait for the break. Of course I have a project and homework prolems to do for math and paper due for Law but hey I'll get it done and still enjoy my mini-vacation! I still plan to workout while I'm there too. We're leaving Thursday so I'll try to get my 30 Day Shred in before we leave then I'll bring Tae-Bo with me for Friday and Monday. Saturday and Sunday I've reserved for walking so that shouldn't be too hard to get in and I figure the ladies can maybe join me while we leave the kids with the boys! Hopefully I'll have tons of pictures to show when I return.

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY!

The Fever

The fever's stronger than ever. It baffles me that when we're younger we do everything we can to NOT get pregnant. Then when we're older and married, assuming you take the normal order of the things, and are ready to be pregnant it's not as easy as our parents led us to believe. So that's where I stand trying to figure out how to move this process along. I want a baby NOW!!! It was my decision to wait until I was a least half way through my master's program and I will be in June, but if we're not pregnant by Julyish then we have to take a three month break so I'm not SUPER pregnant for my sister's wedding next May and it's just come to my attention that my other sister is apparently getting married, but once again she decided not to share anything with me...now I'm starting to take it personal, but first I'm going to talk to her about it before I put her on blast on this blog.

EDIT: it's not that she wasn't telling anyway she's trying to be sisterly and not take the other sister's spotlight. looks like i'll have another wedding to plan this time next year and this ones a destination wedding...ST.THOMAS watch out the dawson girls are coming to town.

Dysfunction

I'm not oblivious of the fact that every family has dysfunction, but often time I look at my family and wonder how one family could be such a mess. And how out of that mess did I wind up the least bit messed up. Divorce is a part of our culture, people decide that the vows they took weren't that serious and just end thier marriage, it's not my job to judge their reasons. My parents divorced when I was 16, it broke my spirit more than anyone knows, but I trudged on. It was at that point that I realized I was a survivor and began to believe that, "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger." My sisters however didn't fair quite as well. Though they'd never admit it the divorce affected them in ways I don't even think they're aware of. There's is not my story to tell but I will say that slowly but surely, and not with out hurt to themselves, our family or others, they're getting themselves together and I couldn't be prouder. My little brother was also a casuality of the divorce, but not b/c of my parents (we don't even share a father) but because he came into a family that couldn't handle the responsibility off adding another spirit to nourish. Just recently this has become all to apparent. My brother has been stealing from all of us! It angers me b/c I gave him and out but it hurts me more b/c obviously he's screaming for attention. My mom, God love her, is tired wants to be a grandma not so much a mom. She let's him get away with murder and now those choices are coming to haunt her. My brother, regardless of what he does, is a good kid...he just makes very, very bad choices. I'm hoping with guidance and therapy and a little God in his life (I firmly believe Church would help him) that he'll find his way. He's only 11 and I refuse to give up on him b/c...What does not kill us, only makes us Stronger.

Holiday/New Year Recap

Since I haven't updated since before Christmas this will be a quick recap of our holidays.

Christmas was great. We spent most of the day at home and the step-son actually got to enjoy his toys. I got to enjoy my brand new kitchn aid mixer and play with my GPS, hubz takes such good care of me. Hubz was excited by his Authentic Wes Welker jersey and the vintage Risk & Stratego games I got him. We had dinner at my mom's with my family and though there's too many of us for it to be relaxing it was fun. My family's loud and obnoxious but I love them all the same. Hubz was especially excited when he got his PS3. I found out about a two weeks before Christmas that he was 95% sure he was getting it so to throw him off the trail I hid it and all the stuff at my mom's house so he didn't get it until Christmas nite. His reaction was priceless.

A few days before Christmas we decided to have our annual New Year's Party, we weren't going to because the house just isn't ready for a party but we made do. As usual it was a success and I drank way to much. I was so proud of hubz though because he didn't throw up, which is like is own personal tradition for New Year's. We spent all day New Year's Day in the bed until about 530 when we decided we were starving and the kitchen was a mess so we went to dinner.

All in all the holidays were fantastic! More than the presents I loved that this year we spent the holidays in OUR home. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! To come....my resolutions!

Thoughts and Ramblings

With only 14 days until Christmas I'm feeling uncharacteristically relaxed. My shopping's just about finished. Saturday we're getting our tree and decorating the outside of the house. I've got a to-do list, of course, with things I need to get finished before Sunday, but I'm doing good. I love Christmas almost as much as I love Halloween, but this year's is bittersweet because next year my best friend will be on the other side of the country. I try not to think about the fact that in five months she'll be gone because it makes me sad instead I focus on our weekly dinners and the time that we do have. Our relationship has never been very complicated. We met in 4th grade and have been best friends ever since. We were inseperable through elementary school, went to different middle schools but were always in touch, reunited in high school where we were once again inseperable and then went to different colleges but again always in touch. She was there the day I got engaged and the day I got married. To know that we're going to have to work harder at maintaining our friendship is both scary and exciting. I refuse to let her not be a part of my life.

Family...Lost but not Forgotten

My mom's an orphan. Her dad passed when she was still a kid, her mom passed April 10, 2000, and her brother, unbeknowst to her until almost a year later, passed in February of 2003. Relations with her brother were strained after the passing of her mother and they just were never to work things out. I don't know really what happened but I do know whatever it was caused for the relationship I could have had with my three cousins to be non-existent. For years this has saddened me. I've sent Christmas cards to their mother and invited them all to my wedding but they all declined. To say I was hurt is an understatement I was really more sad. I mean they were the only family I had left on that side and the fact that we couldn't have a relationship because of something that happene with our parents just didn't make sense to me. Enter facebook... I was on facebook yesterday and just thought "what the heck" so I looked up the girls, their brother wasn't listed, and added them as my friends. Never thinking they'd actually accept but low and behold. Now I find out the youngest just graduated from college and is engaged. They're both more beautiful then ever and I'm just so sad that I've missed out on so much of thier life just because our parents coudn't realize how important family is.

My sisters, God love them, sometimes just need a good shake. However, I would NEVER cut off communication. I need them in my life, though I have my friends, without my sisters I'm nothing. They make me who I am. They share my DNA, my experiences and my shit brown eyes and nappy hair. Sure the two of them are closer because they're twins, but no matter what we are sisters. And there's no bond stronger. I could say the same of my little brother. Sure we're 16 years apart but he's a part of me, we may not share all of our DNA but share enough. I would do anything for these three people that are the most important part of who I am, my family. Sure hubz and the step-son are my new family and now they're my most important responsibility but it's in a different way. I could never and would never turn my back on my sisters or my brother. And to know that my mom and her brother did that to each other baffles me. And it's because of their inability to communicate that I have lost precious time and memories with these cousins that I have longed to know for a while now.

So here's hoping, that with the help of facebook we can have some sort of relationship. Even if it is just through the internet.

My Mind Numbing Thanksgiving Weekend!

So we arrived in PA early Thursday morning, like 130amish, then Thursday eveningish prior to our 6p dinner, we checked into our hotel. Thursday wasn't too terribly bad, don't get me wrong it wasn't great, but not bad. Friday I went shopping with my SIL and when got back hubz and his brothers were playing video games for multiple HOURS...RUDE MUCH!!!!!! We left at around midnitish...after I thought I'd die from boredom. Saturday I went wedding dress shopping with the SILs and the MIL only to come home and find the boys playing video games AGAIN!!! which they'd been doing since 11am, it's now 5p and they're going strong with no sign of stopping. Now I ask you in a house with ONE tv why in the HELLLL would they think this was okay. Seriously it's fucking RUDE. Now let's add to this that we're here until Sunday to do what exactly? There's nothing to do...oh wait we can be forced to play games, FUN TIMES!!!! I want to go home....next time I'm not giving a choice we're leaving on Saturday. It's fine that he doesn't have to do anything for work but I'd like a little down time. I spent my weekdays sitting around doing nothing on the computer the last thing I want to do is spend a holiday weekend doing it.

The only two good things about this weekend, I got most of my Christmas shopping done and SIL may have found her wedding dress, that's assuming her mother doesn't talk her out of it.

Thanksgiving

Well it's Thanksgiving Eve and as I anticipate a very looooong weekend I can't help but be thankful that I at least get to spend it with family even if parts of the family make me want to jump headfirst into a bottle of wine! We're spending Thanksgiving in Pennsylvania with hubz mom and while I'd rather be with my family, I realize that marriage is about compromise, so it's off to PA I go with my happy face on. My MIL is not my most favorite person (it's a long story with issues of respect and boundaries tied in) but she did make my hubz so for that I'm thankful. Normally around the holidays I tend to get reflective. Reflective about the year that's past and the year to come. When I was younger I never understood that Thanksgiving was not only about the food, oh how I love the food, but also about counting our blessings. So this year, after celebrating and surviving my first year of marriage, I'm thankful that God has blessed me with this man who loves me in spite of my flaws, and I know I have many, whose my perfect fit and balances me out. I'm thankful that those men in my family/friends that were deployed this time last year are home safe and with their friends and family this year. I'm thankful that my nieces and nephews are all healthy and growing strong and that this time next year my sister will have added another to this crazy family. Mostly though, I'm thankful that I'm blessed enough to be surrounded by friends and family that I love and cherish and who help me grow and make me stronger. So as we sit down to that yummy turkey, ham or whatever you have for dinner take it all in and thank God for the blessings for which he has bestowed up on us.

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!

Stressed

Remember how a couple of posts ago I talked about my need to control things? Well I'm slowly losing control of my life, at least that's how it feels, and becoming more and more stressed. We're broke, can barely pay all of our bills, hubz hours were just got 20% and Christmas is coming! I've cried more to day then I have in a while. And while some of the crying was due to the excitement I feel for the man that we as a nation have elected as our 44th President most of it was due to the fact that I don't know how we're going to make it until Januaryish when I hopefully get a good bonus and a little bump in pay. Hubz plan is he'll take care of it and that's all well and good but it doesn't work for me if it means he thinks he doesn't have to support me around the house! For the LOVE OF GOD we bought a house with three levels, four bedrooms, 3.5 baths and .5 acres! I CAN'T DO IT ALL!!! Now he wants to go camping this Saturday (something we were suppose to do until we found out, no thanks to the step-son, about a MANDATORY family retreat for RCIC) after spending and entire day at a chruch Retreat. While I was game before we knew about the retreat now I'm not so much, plus WE CAN'T AFFORD it. Doesn't he understand that we have to save what money we have? This is the last check he'll get before the only thing his checks will be paying is the mortgage.

Oh and to add to the stress, I forgot to mention this yesterday, I found out this weekend my best friend (we've know each other since 4th grade) is probably moving to California in June! Great the one person I can talk to honestly about everything and not have to filter anything with! I'm going to miss her daughter growing up and now she won't be here when I finally have kids, whenever the hell that is. I know June's forever away but it'll be here before I we know it!

Deep breaths...that's really the only way to get through this!

Williamsburg

So I survived my weekend alone to Williamsburg. I bowled okay. Saturday I bowled like crap, but on Sunday I go my average 2 out of 3 games and won $20. All in all not to bad. The Skins yet another game. GO SKINS!!!

However, as is part for the course I came home to the house the same way I left it..a mess. Now I understand hubz worked most of the day Saturday, but not all day so why did he not get step-son's laundry started until Sunday? Why couldn't he run a vacum or clean up the kitchn? So as of now I'm on STRIKE! I only washed my laundry and towels last nite. I won't be cooking dinner or cleaning up after anyone until the other two people I live with decide they want to help out! I left razors and shampoo that I bought when I went shopping Friday, along with some mail that needed to be shredded and a magazine of hubz's on the stairs the only thing he moved was the razors and that's only b/c he needed one. WHAT THE HELL!!!! The shampoo was going in the bathroom too, would it have killed him to pick it up!?

At least my birthday is in 4 days! I love birthdays. However after this there's nothing really to look forward to until Christmas and then that'll be sparce this year what with the economy and our lack of money! Oh well Christmas isn't about presents it's about family.