Thursday, January 2, 2014

Patience

This year I'm not doing resolutions that I'll break within a week into the new year.  Instead I'm picking a word to make my theme of the year.  This seems a little more doable for me.  It'll be a word that I can work into most aspects of my life and hopefully by the end of the year I'll be a better person for trying it.

When I was younger and I wanted things to happen RIGHT now my Mom would always tell me, "Patience is a virtue," but she was my Mom and I thought she was crazy.  However, now that I'm a grown-up, or pretend to be one, I wish that patience was a virtue that I more easily embraced.   For this reason I've decided that I'm embracing patience as my theme for 2014.

My kids are only going to be so little for a short time.  Before I know it they won't need me to help them get dressed or snuggle them.  I want to cherish this time and not feel like I'm always trying to just get through something.  This goes for other aspects of my life too.  In my marriage where I want my husband to do everything on my time.  In my weight loss journey where I just want this damn weight to melt off, I mean really it took it longer than 30 minutes to gain why can't I be patient in taking it off? 

I won't promise to be prefect in practicing patience every day but I can promise to try my best each day.  I don't want spend 2014 wishing that I'd done better so I'm going to live my own advice and remember that everyday is a day to do better than the day before.

Monday, December 23, 2013

opps...I did it Again - 10/11 months -Baby Girl

Well, crap!  So much for those plans I had to be better about posting.  Here we are a month and half later and nothing!  That's my life and I'm done dwelling, so onward we go.

At this point baby girl is actually 13 months but I don't want to have missed out on the last two months before she turned 1 so...

My sweet, sweet girl.  I can't believe how close we were to you turning 1.  Your 10th and 11th months weren't full of anything BIG but still lots that was big for you.  You started vocalizing so much more than you had been.  You knew exactly who I was, Momma, and I don't mind saying I LOVE that Momma was your first word, since brother's was Daddy.

As you turned 10 months you still have no teeth and I wasconvinced that you'd be like your brother and cut teeth just before your first birthday, but by the end of the month you had two little teeth ont on the bottom!  You didn't let your lack of teeth you from eating anything and everything we'd let you have. You really started to show your personality and oh boy are we going to have our hands full! Even at just 10 months you were not taking nothing from nobody. While you're obviously not talking yet you still yell at anyone that may try to take stuff from and let your voice be heard.

Month 11 bought your first Halloween and Momma's birthday!  You were the cutest little Strawberry.  As I expected you didn't make it to Trick-or-Treating but that's okay you couldn't eat the candy anyway. You still only had those two bottom teeth but your eating had completely moved to whatever we were eating, you were eating. This made things so much easier for Momma. 

As I prepared for your 1st birthday I was nostalgic and excited for what was to come.  Your fill our life with joy and a little frustration, since for whatever reason you find sleep overrated, and we love you to pieces!  We can't wait to see what you story becomes.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

MIA...

Seriously!  2 months since I last touched this page and while I know it's because life is crazy, although it's slowed down some, it still makes me sad.  This is my place to decompress a little. So I'm vowing to get back to it.  NaBloPoMo (National Blog Post Month) started on the 1st, I'm behind which is really the story of my life anymore, so I'm going to start today.  Last year I did pretty well getting one post a day and this is a big month for the Swiftly Growing house, Baby Girl turns 1 next week!  That means I have a least a weeks worth or posts and not to mention I still need to get her 10/11 months posts up...sigh, I really am overwhelmed by life!  I'm vowing to take the next two months 1 day at a time, otherwise I may completly have a melt down, and just in case the wine rack is stocked!

So I'm back, hopefully full time at least for this month. And I'm hoping at least 2-3 times a week after that but hey I'm a Momma and Wife and a million other things and sometimes life just gets crazy.

Happy Thursday, ya'll! Oh here's a little cuteness!

Saturday, September 7, 2013

3 Years Old - The Bean

3 years ago a tiny little bundle made his appearance after 18 hours of labor and an unplanned C-section.  My first thought upon seeing you was that I was glad you were here but sad your head was pointy, what can I say I'm a little vain.  But once I got out of the operating room and into recovery, where you and your daddy had already spent an hour bonding, I felt my heart overflow with a love I'd never felt.  It was true that becoming a Momma, your Momma, changed me in ways that I can never explain.  Of course after 3 days at home you spent the next 10 in the PICU, where for about 5 days you literally fought for your life.  Eventually you came home and being your Momma has been one of my biggest joys.

Your first year seemed to speed by and before I knew we were celebrating your second birthday.  Between then and now you've become a big brother and such a big boy. Everyday is a new day and I never know what that day is going to be like.  And oh what a big brother you are.  I know that forever and always your little sister will always have you in her corner.  There are people that will say that only children are just as happy as siblings but they'll never make me believe it.  Siblings teach us how to love someone other than our self, unconditionally.  And unconditionally is exactly how you love your sister.  Of course I know in about 10 years you two will "hate" each other but that's all part of the circle of life because 10 years after that you'll have a whole new relationship, as adult siblings, and that's something even I can't explain.

Now here we are celebrating your third year and I can't help but tear up a little, I cry a lot more since you made me a Momma.  My tears are happy tears though.  I'm happy to know that you're a well adjusted, happy loving little boy. I know that the next year will probably be full of ups and downs but that's just life. I can already tell it maybe our most challenging yet but that's only because you're starting to assert your independence, which is too be expected, and considering who your parents are I expect it to be a little bumpy from here on out but at the end of the year when I'm writing about this third year we're embarking on I know the only thing I'll remember are the good things.

My dear sweet boy I hope this next year brings you such growth and memories.  But mostly I hope that you know and always remember that no matter how big you get you'll always be my sweet little Bean.  My first born.

I love you forever and always.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

9 Months - Baby Girl

9 months old means you've been out longer than you were in. That fact is still hard for me to wrap my head around.  I mean 9 months ago we welcomed you into the world and after 10 long days in the NICU we welcomed you home.  Home ...Where you have continued to make us smile and keep us on our toes, even more than your brother did or does.

You're pulling up on everything and anything these days and just recently you've started letting go and trying to balance.  I imagine you'll be walking before your first birthday, that should be fun.  You also have really found your voice and not just for crying, you found it for that not long after you entered the world.  You're always babbling and cooing and laughing.  You LOVE to laugh, sometimes at nothing at all.  I hope you keep that quality about you.  The ability to laugh at life will make your disappointments easier to handle and your successes that much sweeter.

As I look forward to the next 3 months before you turn 1 I can't help but wonder about the little girl that you're sure to become.  Will you be as laid back as your brother was at 1?  I somehow doubt it but that's okay.  How will your relationship with your brothers develop.  I worried that the Bean wouldn't adjust to you being here and in his space but oh how he adores you and your older brother feels the same. 

9 months doesn't seem long enough for me to love you the way I do but really I've loved you since you we're conceived.  The baby girl I prayed and wished for.  I love you forever and always sweet girl.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

August

How in the world is it August already?! I feel like we were just celebrating Memorial Day down in Corolla and now it's almost back-to-school time. This year is a big year in the Swiftly Growing house, the teenager starts high school! The Hubz is more I denial than I am but it's still hard for me to wrap my brain around the almost 14 year old we have and the 3 year old he was when I first started dating his Dad.

The start of high school means so many things for him and us. Before we know it he'll be off to college which means we have 4 years left to get him ready to be a psuedo adult. For him the next four years will start to really mold him into he man he will become.  High school is a time of making memories and choices that will, in one way or another, impact your life more than anything before this ever has.  

I'm excited and nervous for him and us. He's our test subject for how we'll likely handle the others. Although as I'm learning every kid really is different so his experiences will likely be his and only his and the others will all be handle in their own ways, when this chapter comes for them.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Baby ... maybe ... NOT

Sigh ... my dear sweet girl is almost 9 months. Since she was born at 8 months she's been outside of me longer then she was in and while I want nothing more than for her to remain little and squishy for ever that's just not the way things work.  The world keeps spinning which means my babies keep growing and before I know it they're not babies anymore (tear).  Of course thinking about how fast their growing leads me to thinking about another, even though realistically we just can't afford another at this point but oh how I want one.  It's crazy really since little lady is the WORSE sleeper in the history of sleepers and did I mention I'm currently furloughed two days a week?  Yeah as the primary earner in our household that hurts a little and don't even get me started on the state of my marriage, we're in an unsettled place right now... all that to say it's just NOT a good time.  And yet I find myself daydreaming about another little babe growing inside of me and making his/her appearance, hopefully not to early like big sister.  I picture the toddler and baby girl loving a new little baby, a sibling, a new little someone to grow our family but it's just not the time.  I'll know when it's time, just like I did with the first two. 

The plan at this point is for it to be sometime next year, late summer/early fall, so we can plan for 2015 summer baby which puts me on maternity leave for summer (hello summer vacation!) and plenty of time to prepare myself for my sweet, sweet boy to start school but who knows!  Things just don't seem to be working out the way we want lately so ... as always it's in God's hands but oh how I hope he's on the same page as me.