Mood

Lately, I've been in the worst mood. Everything and everyone grates on my nerves and I couldn't even tell you why. It's worse at work than at home which is bad since I deal with people on a pretty frequent basis while at work. I think it's because I haven't really had a vacation from this place in a very, very long time. Sure we just got a week off for snow, but I was in bed sick the entire time so it's not like I really got to enjoy it. I need some type of tropical location where I can get away from Virginia and all the annoyances of this place!

Somtimes you just wanna chuck the lemons...

Normally I'm all about making lemonade, ya know when life hands me lemons, but today I just want to say to hell with it and chuck the lemons. Hubz took his police academy test today and passed with flying colors only to be told that because of bad choices he made years ago he doesn't qualify. He's never been arrested but because of behavior that he chose to be truthful about in his interview just like that his dream to do this thing that he has a yearning for is no longer possible.

I've kept my head up for the past, almost, 5 months as we put everything on hold for him to persue a dream and just like that we find it was all for nothing. He's upset, I know, but I'm pissed it would have been nice to know that this behavior was going to keep him out. Then we could have pursued other options. Now instead we've wasted the last 5 months!

So once I again I find myself praying:
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference.

I know that what does not kill us makes us stronger, but sometimes I wish God didn't believe me to be so strong.