Frustration

It always happens, whenever I try to get healthy I start off strong then frustration kicks in. After last week, when I put on the almost four pounds that I'd lost in the previous two weeks, I'm still at the exact same weight!  Even though I worked out at least 30 minutes everyday and stayed pretty close to my calorie goal!  WTF!  How is it I managed to lose 3.6 lbs no problem four weeks ago but now it's like pulling teeth!  What's even more frustrating is that my bathroom scale says I've had no change but the Wii says I've lost 1.6 lbs, what gives?!  Right about now would be the point I'd quit but I trudge on. I've moved my ulitmate goal, 130, time frame to a little further out.  I'm hoping I can reach it by the time we start trying for baby #2.  This allows me to hopefully get back on track and to be finished breastfeeding, which is part of the reason the weight isn't coming off as fast as I would like -- at least that's what I've heard but really who knows.

Once again I'm not posting my stats because I don't want to see my failure in writing.  I've said that I don't really care about the number on the scale I just want to be happy about how I look but when I feel like I'm working so hard with no change then that number really starts to weigh, no pun intnded, on me.  Here's to a better week.

Derailed

Well, I knew it would happen eventaully.  I let my weight loss get derailed and now I'm back to where I started.  I didn't weigh in on Monday, it was  holiday after all, but I did this morning and the scale told me what I already knew.  In the course of a week, really probably the weekend alone, I'd gained back the almost 4 pounds that I'd lost in the last 3 weeks!  FANTASTIC!!!  I'm not gonna lie I'm discouraged.  But really I brought it on myself. I didn't need to eat four bowls of yummy trifle at my sister-in-law's cookout and I didn't have to have dessert at dinner on Saturday when we celebrated that same sister-in-law's birthday, but I did and so here I am.  Last week was also hard in the exercise department because I haven't been able to get out and walk with the Bean since I have my sister's two younger boys right after work now.  This means by the time they get picked up it's time to start dinner and then get the Bean ready for bed and then it's 8 and I don't want to walk by myself so I just exercise in the basement which is great but boring when I have to do it EVERY day!  I have to figure something out though because now I'm back to where I was and that is NO bueno!

I'm not even bothering with stats because I don't want to see my failure in numbers. 

The jouney continues ... week 3

I wasn't going to even mention my weigh in this week.  Partially because I was home sick yesterday with a wicked migraine and didn't weigh-in until this morning and partially because my weight loss was a measly .1 lb!  What the hell is that?!  For two weeks I lose almost 4 lbs then this week I don't even manage a pound, REALLY!!  Then a friend on MFP (My Fitness Pal) and the hubz reminded me that while I'm losing weight I could also be gaining muscle.  Okay I'll take that but what really hit home was when I put on a pair of work pants that has two buttons that hadn't both been buttoned since WAY before I got knocked up with the Bean.  I didn't initally button both when I first got dressed seeing as last week when I wore said pants they still didn't fit.  But on my first trip to the bathroom I wasn't really paying attention and I buttoned both and then I stopped and realized holy hell I'm losing weight!!!  So I'll take that measly .1 lb for this week but next week that scale better come up with something better.

So here we are:

Starting weight: 156.7
Today's weight: 153
Weekly loss: -.1
Total loss: -3.7
First goal: 150 - (reward - massage)
Final goal: 130 (reward - COACH bag)

I'm 3 pounds from that massage.  Oh wouldn't that be a great way to start the summer!

Again ...

I lost more weight in the last week I'm down almost two more pounds, 1.9 to be exact.  I can't believe how well I'm doing and I know it can't be like this forever but for now I'll take it! I've really been trying to be aware of what I'm putting in my mouth, especially since I'm a mindless eater, and it's really helping.

This week was pretty easy to stay on track.  Only one big road block and that was  a suprise party for a good friend.  Luckily since I was her distratction to get her out of the house we went to lunch so I didn't eat much at the actual party.

So now it's a new week and I'm determined to get at least 20 minutes of exercise in every day this week.  Monday and Thursday are easy because those are my Zumba days and I don't have anything else competing for my time.  It's Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday that are the issues, but I'm determined to lose this weight so I'll just have to figure it out.  Also, I'm trying to stop the late eating, lately I'm lucky if I get dinner before 8 because of being a weekday single mom but I'm going to try and stop eating every by 8, so that's 2 hours before bed, not sure if that's gonna make difference but we'll see.

So here's the stats:

Starting weight: 156.7
Today's weight: 153.1
Weekly loss: -1.9
Total loss: -3.6
First goal: 150 - (reward - massage)
Final goal: 130 (reward - COACH bag)

I Lost...

Weight that is!  Since last Monday I've lost 1.7 lbs!!!  I'm only 5 lbs away from my first goal and hopefully in time for my littlest sisters wedding next month.  I'm acutally suprised that I lost so much considering all the eating and no exercising I did this weekend but I'll take it.  Today I'm getting back on track with the exercising and food listing.  Keeping track of my food is what really helps me.  I'm a grazer and snacker and eater even when I'm not hungry.  If I'm writing on everything that I'm eating I'm able to stay more aware of what I'm putting in my mouth.  It's suppose to be beautiful all week so I see lots of walking in mine and Bean's future, I can't wait since Bean always seems to sleep so much better when he gets some fresh air. 

Well, here's where I'm at:

Starting weight: 156.7
Today's weight: 155
Weight loss: -1.7
First goal: 150 - (reward - massage)
Final goal: 130 (reward - COACH bag)

Begin...Again

I feel like every 6 months I come to a point where I'm so disgusted and disappointed in myself and decide to get back on the weight loss train.  I can't seem to get the weight off or keep it off when I do get it off.  I'm an emotional eater, admitting you have a problem is the first step right?  I eat when I'm stressed, happy, sad, bored hell I eat out of boredom.  I love food and the comfort it gives, quite frankly I'm lucky I'm not bigger than I am, but I hate the weight that it packs on and the way that weight makes me feel about myself.  So today I resolve to once again begin again to get in shape and lose weight.  Since I'm still breastfeeding, and have no intention of quitting before 1 year if I don't have to, I should only be losing about 1 pound a week.  If I could just watch my food intake I should be able to do this, but as I mentioned I love food, so I also have to figure out some way to fit in at least 30 minutes a day of exercise.  It's finally getting nice outside so if I can fit in a walk everyother day I should be good, I hope.  If I can maintain the 1 pound a week I should be down about 6 pounds by the time my baby sister gets married in June.  It's not much but it's something and really any weight loss at this point is a reason to celebrate.  I want to be at my goal weight, 130, before we start trying for baby #2 next spring.  Heck I'd love to be that before Trip turns 1 but with breastfeeding I don't know if that'll happen. 

So here we go again!

Weight Loss

So I've been saying for two weeks now that I was going to start working out and eating better. Here I am two weeks later and I've put on more weight! That's it I'm done. Getting dressed for work today I put on a shirt I wore just last week and is now to tight! Seriously! So I just signed up for Jillian Michaels weight loss plan, it's $4/week, $52/quarter and even if I decide I don't like it they're keeping a non-refundable $20 for a five week minimum so for the next 5 weeks at least I'm getting serious. I think after 5-weeks it'll such a part of me that even if I decide to cancel it won't matter b/c I'll still continue doing what I was doing, at least that's what I'm hoping. I just can't take being fat! I won't be that girl with the giant gut wearing a two piece, thanks but no thanks. I talk about those girls I don't want to now be the girl being talked about.

One Fat Ass

Nope not someone else, but me. After a year and half of marriage I've been come a little too comfortable and weight the most I've ever weighed. Sure 150 to someone wouldn't be that big, but seeing as I don't even stand 5'0 it's a little bit more weight than I should be carrying around. So I've decided to focus my energy I'm spending trying to have a baby on trying to lose the fat! I'm going to LA to visit a friend in June so starting next monday I'll have almost exactly six weeks to lose at least 10 lbs but I'm hoping maybe 15. Sparkpeople and I are becoming reacquainted and I'm going to get Tae Bo from my sister-in-law. Between that, 30 day shred, walking and the various households chores I'm motivated. Plus I have all these cute 2-piece bathing suits that I want to wear but will not be putting this fat ass into if I don't lose some weight. This also helps me to not feel like such a failure about my inability to get pg, okay it doesn't really but I'm hoping it helps me keep my mind off of it.